Recently a long-time friend of our family referred to me as a “soft touch” and I immediately took offense at this characterization. While I joked about it at the time and fired back some sarcastic comment with a smile, I have been pondering that phrase. After all, nobody likes to be called a wimp, right? This morning I had to look up the definition of “soft touch” and based on what I’ve come to learn about mercy and understanding, I think I can live with this label after all. The Oxford Online Dictionary defines “soft touch” as: A person who readily gives or does something if asked. While that is not true one hundred percent of the time, that description sums up what I ask for daily in prayer when I say, “Lead Me, Lord.” I often turn to God in prayer and just ask for guidance, nothing more and nothing less. Do you ever just want to know that you are headed in the right direction? That’s a major part of where I am in my current post-age-fifty prayer life.
As a child, our mom said a prayer with us every morning at the breakfast table called The Morning Offering. I haven’t thought about it for years, but today it is a vibrant memory. You may be familiar with it:
O Jesus, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I offer you my prayers, works, joys, and sufferings of this day for all the intentions of your Sacred Heart, in union with the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass throughout the world, for the salvation of souls, the reparation of sins, the reunion of all Christians, and in particular for the intentions of the Holy Father this month. Amen.
I don’t want to be jaded and if that means putting myself out there for others and occasionally getting burned, so be it. Most of the times when I hold back from helping another, it’s due to fear or my own insecurities, but I will keep plugging away at them, doing whatever I can in my own simple way to bring about the Kingdom here on earth. I have a long way to go, but if I am a “soft touch” already, that means my heart has not been hardened, and in Christian terms, that’s a good thing, right?